August 18th - August 29th, 2025
halloooo my friends! it has been a hot little minute, but i'm back for more rambling! 
待ってくれてありがとうね！let's get into it!
i have been absolutely enamored with my animal crossing new leaf town lately!! 
i started a completely new one to try and use some mods, and it's been SO fricken fun! i've been chipping away diligently everyday to make it my ultimate dream town. i think some people don't like when others play with mods, but to each their own. :3 i'm just living happily playing my lil 3ds!
work has been busy busy busy & so many things have been happening, but most of all... GERMS. GERMS HAVE BEEN HAPPENING. so many people are getting the sniffles and i am praying all that nonsense steers clear of me... i haven't been sick since i had covid in like 2023. pls pass me over, germ goddess 
i've also been making a lot of progress with my japanese reading! i feel like gaming every single day consistently with japanese games has really been making it easier for me to digest text. DUH. i knew it would happen, but i guess in the past i've put so much pressure on myself to do things consistently that i forgot to actually have fun with it. fun is KEY!!! have FUN! language and learning should be FUN! maybe not all the time, but when you get to a certain level, try just diving into your interests but in the target language. and don't put too much pressure on yourself, lest the activity just become a chore. 
i think i forgot about that before, or maybe i didn't have enough vocab or kanji knowledge to really enjoy the games. idk! i've been chipping away at "beyond the labyrinth" (ラビリンスの彼方) and have noticed a huge difference in how quickly i can digest. this game doesn't give you much of a chance to stop and read as the story is progressing, but does have a log! however, knowing what's happening as it's playing out and actually understanding the context has been huge. i feel like my brain is gaining many, many wrinkles. 
it's been SO FRICKEN EXCITINGGGG!
my fiancee and i have our birthdays relatively close, so he bought me the new story of seasons game yesterday. i am in gaming heaven lately, ya'll! 
that's basically all i've been doing lately is going home, chillin' with my beautiful boy, our stinky kitty, and my parents & gaming it up. it's been a simple, peaceful time lately. 
my brain has been a little bit silly this week - so here's a lil question to get ur gears goin'. how do you let go of things that have hurt you in the past without that closure or understanding of why? i've kind of been struggling with it, but not in a sense of "this happened to me" because I play an active part in every situation in my life. more of a "what could i have done to make it better" kind of way. i have a few previous situations i've been stuck on today (not all week, mostly because of a dream i had last night) that have been making me pause and get a little lost in the dark corners of my psyche. i know it's not productive to give it much energy and i already know how i should be going about it, but sometime i just get a little down in the dumps about things that have transpired. i miss some old memories and the way some people were present in my life, but not enough to reach out and try to rekindle anything. i'm glad i have good memories and i want to cherish those. maybe i just don't understand or wouldn't act in the same way the other party did, but i still hope people from my past are doing well and can be their best selves. blah!!! just feeling a little sad and reminiscent. the future is bright, though! i have a lot of really amazing things happening around me despite the world being on fire and continuously getting more and more out of control. i hope you can overcome the hardships and confusing situations in your life too my friend. 
not a huge post today, but i wanted to get a few words outta my brain and i love this website and will keep returning to slowly build it up. i have some fun ideas but mostly just love the little corner to myself to yap and decompress and create.
see you next time!
